Okay, first of all pardon me because I am gonna use my English, but of course with so.many failures in grammar. So, I am asking for some apologize before.
And then, I am not gonna post this in my facebook page or my LINE timeline, because I kind embarassed to tell what I truly feel.
So, I am sorry, if it feels too cheesy or something.
Let's start.
To : You, who I caught in my eyes since 2013
Well, hello it's me. The ugly bear called stella that kind of speechless from the day one I saw you. Suddenly my thoughts screaming "whoa, who are you?". There, I thought my feeling towards you just like "Yes, you are my senior. Of course there will be your charms that caught to my senses" So I just let it go sometimes. But everytime I meet you, every friday, I see you. And hope maybe if I able (to force myself) sitting near to you, or maybe just talk to you, I might have chance.
Then, comes a game in one occasion that i won't remember, guessing the junior's full name buy showing a puzzle of face. Then my face appeared, maybe just a piece of mine, like my eye, nose, half of my face, or just my mouth who smile so widely.
He raised his hand and saying, "Stella".
And I just like blank for a while. And then, the MC said "Kak, nama lengkapnya".
And then he said..
"Stella Andriana Putri"
Gosh! My heart went thump thump thump so badly. And I can't hide my smile again. I don't know but, as a girl you must be know that feeling right.
even when he just called your full name, you must be...happy.
Time goes by, I've never showed up my feeling about him. I am just someone who watch him from a distance. Well, with the notes : Far Distance.
I am still thinking, oh maybe I adored him so much cause he is charming, indeed, as a senior. But mostly of my friends said "Iya keren sih, tapi biasa aja"
Nope, you are never be a "biasa aja" to me.
Cause our three years gap, he finally went to coass. Kind of sad. I never saw him anymore. Well, just for a while in Christmas or Easter Celebration. While, on that time I just following your instagram, saying hi, asking for him, his activity, some kind that stuff.
When I finally coass, he already graduate. Become doctor, as he wants it to be (of course, why he would come to med school tho). I really happy, he walks the path seems so smooth, calm, just the way he is. Just the way I look at him for all this time.
You, actually I wonder if only.. I were brave enough. Well, I am not beautiful or stylish, or mature like a lady. I am still a 23 years old who still find my own path.
But, everytime I talk to you through this virtual world, I feel your voice in every words you type. And I miss you. I miss to see you. I wonder, I might be just a little kid who asking this and that to you. But it all because, I...am not good to start a conversation.
I am praying to God. If only there's a chance, may I say that I like/love you for all these five years?
To you, who can play guitar, who might be not extrovert enough, who ever said "Kok kamu tahu semua lagu sih stel", and the others. The one that like hoppipola song, so every time I play that, I see you in my deepest mind.
To you, the one, that I still fall to, from 2013.
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